Ahemmmm

It is 5 am and I can't sleep. I meander outside in the back yard and it's a beautiful night. I love the hours right before dawn. My friends, the racoons, are always prowling around the yard but as soon as they see me, they scurry a bit up the nearest tree and peek at me from their hiding place. They are so cute. I always search for the fireflies as when I see them, I figure all is well. These days when the house is full and the ambiance in the home is ambition and buzz, I find myself looking for a quiet place for thot gathering. and moments to just get quiet for a bit.. I am becoming climaized as I have been spending more time outdoors  and it's not all that bad.

It is also very hard, sitting here wondering if we are "too move or not to move". I just have such a definite feeling that it is time for a new start. There are things that I love about where I am. I have grown attached to some of the neighbors as we have gone through some hard times together. Neil id undergoing Chemo a 2nd tme and Stan is forever entertaining with his stories of yesteryear. He looks especially exotic as he pulls weeds in his front lawn in a full bee keeper outfit. He hates mosquitos. Lawana is always fun to talk to and never seems to change. Most of our neighbors here are lonely old people, living alone. I hate to leave them.
I also love the huge trees all around and yet look forward to living in a place where I can rest in peace and not have flashbacks of a trees falling during a hurricane. Experiencing that felt a bit like a scene from Lord of the Rings with the huge trees coming alive and moving all around That part of the movie traumatized me a bit more that anything else and as I walk down the street here, I am in awe of the beauty of the trees but also walk carefully, knowing limbs fall all the time and at the first sound of a crack, I should RUN! I was watering a few days back when a large limb fell and crushed the neighbor's patio set just a ways away.
Well, back outside......I need to go check on my raccoon friends who are actually, most likely, raiding the garbage again.